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I know EXACTLY this feeling. Those clear windows are like... remembering who you used to be. For a few hours your brain is just ON and it's incredible and also heartbreaking because it reminds you of what you've lost. I've started trying to document what's different on my clear days — sleep quality, food, activity level the day before, weather — hoping to find a pattern. Haven't cracked the code yet but I refuse to believe it's completely random.
cherish those windows. i had one last week and i literally just sat there for a minute being like "oh right. this is what thinking feels like." then i immediately tried to do everything and definitely overdid it but for those few hours i felt like ME again. your brain is still in there. the fog is lying when it tells you otherwise
same experience. those clear hours are gold. I get maybe one clear afternoon a week if I'm lucky and I've learned to protect them — no wasting them on chores, I use them for the things that make me feel human. Talking to friends, reading, working on stuff that requires actual thought. Bodies are SO weird. I wish I knew what the switch was.
"your brain is still in there" made me cry a little bit. needed to hear that today